A Spiritual journey with Jesus Divine Mercy
let us not be afraid of the Sacrament of Confession. Jesus is waiting for us there

Jesus said, "Tell souls where they are to look for solace; that is, in the Tribunal of Mercy (Confession). There the greatest miracles take place and are incessantly repeated." (Diary of St. Faustina 144 ..."when you go to confession, to this fountain of My mercy, the Blood and Water which came forth from My Heart always flows down upon your soul and ennobles it. Every time you go to Confession, immerse yourself entirely in my mercy, with great trust, so that I may pour the bounty of my grace upon your soul." (Diary of St. Faustina, 1602)    

My journey began many years ago, I had my faith in God well I thought did , but was so scared to go to confession, to the extent I didn’t go mainly because of the fear,. it was more a block or pride, well we all know pride is a sin, and now that I look back I am sure it was pride, that stopped me from being open and honest in the confession,

In fewer years I did start to go to the sacrament of confession, but still very fearful, not trusting in God’s Mercy or forgiveness, there was a block there...How was I going to get through this block, of being fearful of God’s Mercy .its God you’re going to confession not the priest I would tell myself, but the butterflies would enter and I would feel quite ill  and the shame , and mainly the guilt, and all I could say was Lord will I ever get over this?  Please take this horrible fear away..

Lord I know your love me but I am so afraid help me please!

So I begin sitting in front of the Blessed Sacrament begging Jesus to help me, to take the fear away, telling him how I need to be free of all that was bogging me down...( and was it blogging me down it was making me physical sick!!)

So this one day I was in front of the blessed sacrament praying and all of a sudden I felt this peace come through me it  was a strange feeling, and confessions were being heard at the time ,and I thought  I will just go and trust in your mercy Lord, but please come with me as I am so very scared! 

As I was walking towards the confessional I was feeling more and more uneasy, I knew I had to do this to Because God wanted me back, and I wanted to be back!

As I sat down and began my confession I felt a shift as if I wasn’t there, all I remember is I had got everything off my chest and I felt straight away this peace I have never felt before, When Fr said I absolve you from your sins in the name of the Father and of the Son , I felt so free this peace I have never felt before, and I walked out sat back down in Front of the Blessed sacrament and said to Jesus :Thank you, and the tears were streaming down my face, Knowing that Jesus loves me so very much, the feeling is beyond words.

So Now you cannot keep me away from confession as it is my Refuge, I can last only a fortnight and I go back, just knowing how much Jesus wants to heal me,  and I am immersed in his Mercy, each time,

What a wonderful gift we have in this sacrament, and I pray for those who need God’s Mercy and will come back to Jesus in this wonderful sacrament.

Thank you Lord For this wonderful Sacrament.

I just heard today that you can not only fast from your fav sweets, chocolates, wine, movies, but you can also fast from anger, laziness, selfishness, envy, jealousy, impatience, pride, arrogance, greed? 40 days of not giving into at least one of them? But what do you replace it with - patience, love, mercy, kindness, get more active, eat less food. Think about it.

We all struggle with our day to day battles, but when we put Jesus into our life, it seems we are able to be more forgiving of the other, more understanding of the other and know God is in each person whom we come across.

I find it so difficult when I have to be nice to some one that has hurt me or snubed me, I fine I would like to dissapear, but when I look at What Jesus went though,it makes the parth a little bit easier to bear,.Carrying the Cross with Jesus is hard, but he loves each and every one of us....

So I pray we all are able to be more patient and kind, esp this lent take time out for those less fortunated then our selfs, and those who long to have a friend, or some one who just wants to share there problem with..

I pray This lent we will all get a closer relationship with Jesus.

Mary Pray for us .

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I have longed for God to hold me, to give me peace in my soul. the last week has been up and down, spiritual I am feeling battered, but to get closer to Jesus I have to go through the thorns and sadness ups and downs....some days are a spiritual battle, to the point I would LIKE to give up, but then what is my sorrow to Gods sorrow, nailed to a cross and left to die, what his mother must have been going though, the sadness and brokeness of her to watch her son die, like this....I can not begin to imanage how it must have felt for her, and what must have been going though her mind.....beyond words.

THE Sadness in my own life, each day is a challange, to take up my cross and follow Jesus, to just keep going no matter what,the walk becomes harder has you get closer to the cross.

I was sitting in the church the other day in front of the Blessed Sacrament, and I was so stirred up just couldnt not be still .trying to quiten my mind and listern to Jesus speak to me. confessions were being heard, so I got up and went, the freedom I felt as I poured my my Heart to God, the forgiveness God had for me, the Power of that sacrament is beyound beleif and just to know how much God loves each one of us and wants only the best for each one of us....I can not begin to thank him for he wonderfu gift,..

I pray each that God  beloved souls that have left him will come back, that people will relise how powerful the sacrament of confession is...we need that sacrament, to keep us going, well I know I do, and I thank GOD each day....

Even though I want to crawl back into bed, I made it before I got a chance to do that, I say a pray to God to keep me going today, becasue yesterday I had a no day at all..I was challanged big time and I fell flat on my face, as I couldnt get my act together, I couldnt be bothered to even pray..Not good, you know what happens, when I dont pray ? what happens to you? yes with me every thing goes wrong, I did have a wonderful pattern, where I prayed Morning, Midday, afternoon, night....it was a struggle, and I did have my challanges,but I kept going, I kept beleiving God was on my side, no matter what happed, I kept saying the Rosary, and knew in my darkest hour it was all going to be ok...

We need God in our life all the time, how hurt he must feel when we dont communiate with him, when we are doing well and dont need him in our lives..well I have relised I need him, I struggle with him some days, and some day dont even feel he is with me, but those are the days he is carrying me...

With out our faith where would we be? well I know I wouldnt be here today if I didnt have faith, for what has gone on in my life I truley beleive God carryed me in those darkest days. and I am forever grateful to him, and I pray that I can continue the Journey, even though some days are harder than other, but through it all I know Jesus walks with me.

The days and weeks are going fast, not long till our cruise!! again, can not wait, and have been keeping my self busy with the prayer group and finding more people on line and off, it is amazing how many people want pray for priest and do sacrifices, this is what the group is all about, one sacrifice and one prayer,our priests all need our prayers esp our sacricifes as they are struggling big time.

On sunday I went to mass up at muswelbrook for the blessing of the prayer group which is called St John vianney, prayer group, it is amazing how many people are joining even though this picture is only half the people it was still amazing, please continue to pray for this group and if you would like to join by all means will send the booklet to you

God bless

Lent started last wednesday so we are neally into a week of Lent, it has been a struggle,

I promised my self and God I would attend mass each week on sunday,( I had stop going) and go to confession once a week,but the stuggle which I am enduring already, spiritual battle ,Night time I Wake up and battle is there, so I pray and know IT will pass in due time...

Because I have let God into my soul and I am more and more honest and getting spritiaul direction, the evil one is on battle to destroy me, to come between me and God, he dosent want me to be close to God, he dosent want me to change my life for better,he wants the old me...to not pray, to not be open to Jesus and not sit infront of the blessed sacrement.or go to confession, the fact I go to confession he hates, and wants only for me to feel rotton about it and to go against the priest that is helping meand also me thinking this priest is againist me, he wants me to think all this...he dosent want me to be happy, he wants me to feel meserable and go back to my old ways.

Yes it is a struggle and these spiritual attacks are happening, But I will win them with God on my sie and being quite in prayer and our ladys Rosary ,I will over come it all, I dont know how long these attacks will happen, bUT I will not give in...

Even though my health isnt so good at present I will still battle on and pray each day and go to the sacrements...there is where my sourse of life is....with out God I am nothing.... .jpg">